Having to accept that my children are growing up is hard! I miss them being little, cute, innocent and NOT IN PUBERTY! Josh is almost 16 and by all accounts pretty much a man, Jeremiah is 12 and the changes are happening to him fast & furiously! Thankfully, Julia isn't there yet....but it's coming, she is 10.
Jeremiah who is in Albuquerque with my parents sent me a text today that said "Mom, I just shaved my mustache by myself & it didn't turn out so good." Ok...so for one I did know he had a little fur on his upper lip but I had told him when he was ready daddy would help him and show him how to shave like he had done with Josh, but I didn't think that meant NOW. Secondly, what does "It didn't turn out so good" mean anyway? Did he cut his lip and now he's bleeding profusely? Apparently no, he was just being silly and thinks his upper lip now looks paler than the rest of his face. WOW!
Hormones, mood swings, etc...etc...is something I hope I'm handling well as a mom but sometimes I wonder. Accepting my oldest, Josh drive off with his friends, girls, getting a job and all that other stuff that comes with growing up is sometimes more than this mom can take. It's what we do as mom's though, we adjust and we are there for them even if there needs change. Remembering Josh curled up in my lap while I read him his favorite book when he was little is a memory I will cherish forever, Hmmmm.... I wonder if I found that book, "The Giant Jam Sandwich" if he would indulge me and let me read it to him? Maybe I could sit on his lap instead! He's a sweet kid so I know he would endure my silly mommy moment but I will refrain. I will though, continue to hug, & kiss all of them, even if they duck away from my hugs & kisses at times. I will continue to tell them I love them & I'm here for them NO MATTER WHAT. Those moments that they don't duck & they confide in me or tell me what an awesome mom I am...those are moments I have to cherish now!
I know how you feel.....a little. Spencer isn't shaving yet or driving, but he is leaving for church camp for the first time tomorrow! He'll be gone for a whole week, and he is really nervous. I keep telling him it's going to be ok. Hopefully one of these times it will sink in! It kind of makes my heart smile to know that he'll actually miss me and that's why he's so nervous about going!
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